Sharon.. A name i will never forget. A woman so dear to my heart. A person who can hear the inner struggle of my heart and give explanations to them. She can put a sentence to whatever i am feeling. Never fails to encourage me even when the whole world seems to be against me. And only she can see the beauty of my soul, how hard i am trying to adapt and what a strong person i am trying to be. Even i can be against myself, thinking whatever i am feeling is so wrong. But she can always right the wrong. Thank you Sharon for everything.
Been feeling down for quite sometime. Even when everything seems to be fine. Practically have no reasons to be sad or whatsoever. As if i'm waiting for something better to come along. What is the thing i'm waiting for? I don't like to think that i am discontented with my life. Rather i think i am not settling at anything below the best. Searching hard for it. May be it's a relationship, a task or mission, a kind of feeling, etc... I really don't know. But i know this, right now, here, is not where i want to be. I will be better, further and feel really happy about it. Just wait and see. =)
Oh... Really hafta say this. Actually this (blog) has meant for me to really express my own deep thoughts and reflection about myself. But i kinda feel self-consious about writing everything now that i know people are reading it. It just defeats the very purpose of writing one! A blog like xiaxue.blogspot.com is one where she welcomes people into exploring her thoughts. But i somehow feel that people are invading mine! hahaz... Something is wrong here. Should not be feeling this way. Maybe i am ashame of how i am feeling? I seriously don't know.
I was out with wendy today. Went for the doc's appt and then shop around. The FCUK sales was over. =( Thanks to ZQ, i missed it. It was a up-to 90% sales!!! Oh man! We missed it because of very silly reasons like he need to find a place to sit down and have a drink before... before he fainted? Anyway, back to the shopping. Saw a mango coat at $160.00. Really chic and stylish. Too dear.. During dinner, She cooked dinner for mE!!! So touched. I've finished up everything. Even the egg with the shells in it. Lolz... Thanks gal.. Then we hung out at valvebar for awhile. Reached home by 10.30pm.
Had a heart-to-heart talk with my mum just now. She's so lovely. She really sits down and hear me out. Talking with friends is like they only hear 40% of it. But my mum hears even the unspoken stuff. Lucky of me to have her as my mum. But seriously, my mum is the real lucky one because she has found my dad as her husband. He is the sweetest guy i have known. Maybe in his own silent way. But he's a real keeper! I want a husband who is like my dad. Who loves my mum and care so much for us. =) Pray hard for me. Still waiting for God's best.
Oh! and Happy 20th Birthday to Carlene!
"I can do all things through Christ because he gives me strength" Philippians 4:13 ncv
No comments:
Post a Comment