Growing up

I'm 21! Happy Birthday to me! Really scary to think that i am growing older each day and yet accomplishing nothing yet. Well... the key word here is YET. I believe that i will be someone who will accomplish great things. But how?? I don't even know where my window of opportunities are. I need a stepping stone to start. And starting is always the hardest part.

The birthday Bash was well-recieved. All my friends turn up. Except for Clamen and Jason. But anyway, it was still cool... Wendy was the earliest. Help me out a lot during the day. That's what friends are for right? Make me feel that she is those best girlfriends who help u get dress during your date. Hehez... He (my bf) helped me since friday. Stay with me throughout to sat and sun. I am really very very touched! I now know he is capable of doing that. He is capable of loving me this much. Then weiwen and his gf came next. Really appreciate their puntuality. They stay the furthest (pioneer rd) yet they arrived the earliest. Xueli and other girlfriends turn up too. Didn't really talk much to them. They were entertaining themselve most of the time. But i think they won't mind. Patrick and the guys turn up too.. Then ivy and chiewling (my pri sch mate). Jin, emily and dotie came too.. My church friends Shelley and Sivian and her husband came too... Followed by Amber! She is so late. But she is the one that stayed throughout till the clock struck 12 to wish me happy birthday. Hehe... Glad that you were with me then. Zhaoquan was also with me. Alvin and james came rather late too.. But glad they can make it. Hechi was the latest! Hmmm... Hahaz. But i am happy that Wayne showed up. For more than a little while. Actually appreciate everyone's participation. Make me feel like a princess on the day.

Actually the climax of the party was right after cutting the cakes. I went to give a piece of cake to my dad. Then i give him a really tight hug. While doing so, i told him that i am really happy on that day. He said: " 21 yrs old already. Getting more mature already, and that means your papa is growing older day by day". Upon hearing those words, tears just stung in my eyes. At that particular moment, I am willing to give up everything in the whole world for him. i love him so much!

My boyfriend surprise me the most. He was with me for 3 days in a row. Help to do the birthday preparation, collect his DJ system even though it is so heavy, finally willing to meet my parents, bought my present in advance!, and so much more. Even though it is just for 3 days, i feel that it is enough. At least i know this man is capable for doing so much for me. And he like me enough to do all that. I feel blissful enough. It went beyond my expectation. But maybe it's because i have none to speak off first. On sunday, we stayed till late. He told me he has to go. I know my fairytales have to end. I know that on monday, it will be back to work. And everything old will set into place. Just like before. And it did. But i'll never forget those 3 days...( c:

I know that i have fallen deep again. This time was with him. A man without promise. I'm in for a really hard time. But there is no turning back now. It was time that he wanted. And time, i give. Now that i have put my love on the stakes, i can't take it back. I know i will lose. I can not win this man. But i still want to try. Silly me! God will catch my fall.

I have found a like-minded person. Someone whom understands me as well as i can understand. I pray God will never allow us to be apart. And i know that it was God who brought us together. It was God who let us be in the same class for 2 consecutive sem. Angee, welcome to my life. There's more to come. Let's explore it together.