She decides to die

I thought that I might want to continue the story of Veronika...

As mentioned in my previous blog, the doctor diagnose her a death sentence due to irreversible damage to her organs by the drug and she was left with only 1 week to live. She might die the next minute or hour. And it was during this time when she fall in love with a man, Eduard.

If i am in her shoe, knowing that I would die any instance and at the same time falling in love with a man, that thought is enough to kill me. What would I have done? Falling in love is about butterflies in the stomach and anticipating sweet romance. But what have got a half-dead girl to anticipate about?

Ok, I felt that the end was rather anti climatic if I were the one to narrate it. You got to read the whole book to feel its essense. But I'm still gonna spoil it for everyone. *evil grinz*

The doctor in the mental hospital was writing a thesis on the cure for this drug that Veronika took; Vitriol. He uses Veronika as his tester. When Veronika was admitted to the hospital, he had already clear her system of the drug. Instead he gave her a daily dose of injected to stimulate 'heart-attacks' on her to induce her into thinking that she is really going to die. Therefore in the 1 week where Veronika live, thinking that it was her last, she make use of the time in doing what she always wanted to do but do not have to courage to pursue it. She pushed her limited of her dreams, sexual desire and personality into doing things she would never do. She fall in love not fearing of being hurt as she thought she is going to die anyway.

Yes, the doctor trick everyone.

His conclusion of the thesis is "An awareness of death encourage us to live more intensively". And that is so true. Like I've always say. Sing like nobody is listening, dance like nobody is watching, love like its not gonna hurt and live like there is no tomorrow. However, after being a Christian, I know of a thing called ETERNITY. So for me its like; 'live like there is no tomorrow, but exercising caution because there is this thing called ETERNITY.

That's another story altogether. Another time..

Anyway, the story ends rather aruptly. It ended with Veronika and Eduard eloping from the hospital as Veronika doesn't want to die there. So Veronika still doesn't know of the truth about her condition. Only the readers know it.

Its a good story with a good ending. I felt that there is no better way to end it. People always want happy endings. But in this case, I thought an ambiguous ending suit the style of writing. We know the truth but yet we are unsure of how it ends.

Will Veronika try to kill herself again because it is unbearable for her to wait for her own death knowing that she rather live?
Or will she cherish every second of it from this point on?

Life is a big question mark only God can put a full stop to it.