Tuesday, September 29, 2009

of fly-away bride

Me and MArk is having our usual wedding conversation and this particular one sets me cracking up.


Me: My mom seems to prefer a saturday night wedding banquet but I'm afraid with the morning wedding at church, I'll be half dead by the night session. (Me and MArk initially agreed to have a sunday night banquet)
MArk: Hmmm.. I don't think you'll be tired on that day right?
Me: Ya.. Maybe must down plenty of Red Bull
MArk: But what if you fly away?
Me: .... (my mind conjuncting up an image of a fly-away bride on her wings) ROFL

of more venues down, some more to go

Seems to have a turn of event during our venue sourcing for our wedding. Apparently Grand Corpthone Waterfront doesn't have the dates that we wanted. We are soooo flexible giving them at least 12 dates but none fits into their busy schedule. Boohooo..

I love the ballroom! High ceiling, no pillar, beautiful long aisle walk-in and garden backdrop.

Too bad.. We have to quickly source for an alternative venue to back us up. We have to convince ourselves that an alternative doesn't mean second best though. It might just means a higher price tag. haha..

Thursday, September 24, 2009

of mixed feelings

I was watching a funny scene on TV when it all started. It first started as a chuckle, and progressively evolve into full blown laughter. I was laughing and laughing so hard till tears were streaming down uncontrollably. Without any warning, it laughing turn to sobbing. Those fat tears just rolled down uncontrollably...

This yo-yo emotion went on for a good 3 minutes before I snapped myself out of it.

This never happened to me before... Must be those pent-up emotions trying all their means to escape me through any emotional release action, hence make those laughing-out-loud become sobbing-out-loud.

While I was laughing-crying or whatever you call that, I was actually alternating between 2 emotions simutaneouly; laughing and crying and laughing and crying again. One moment I was laughing at the stupidity of the actress, and the next moment I found myself crying and thinking about those issues that life has thrown onto my lap. This yo-yo emotion went on for a good 3 minutes before I snapped myself out of it.

That's what I would literally call - mixed feelings.

You know they always say "don't know to laugh or to cry". While I did both. I laughed and I cried.

I must be too high strung lately. Hmmm..




Source: getty images

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

of full circle

There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven. Ecclesiates 3:1

It has truly been a challenging period for me, trying to juggle with work, church and my life.

It wasn’t so much as a tough season, but a season where I have come full circle.

After all the changes that I am going through with the situation at work, the direction of the church and with my personal life, they are now the same as they were in the beginning.

With work has been most frustrating. After all the changes that we need to do since the first draft, we have sent the designers back to their drawing board for uncountless times and in the end, we ended up with something similar to the first draft. I understand that that was an inevitable process.

Last Sunday, Pastor Khong mentioned that he had a revelation that God wanted him to complete what he has started off so many years ago. All these years, with all the implemented changes injected at mid-way, it might seem that we are heading back where we have left off.

I must admit that I am becoming dizzy from all these merry-go-round motion. It’s not fun getting lost in the labyrinth. I just needed some clear direction.

It sets me thinking somehow.

Maybe we all need to come full circle in order to realize something which we have forgotten along the way? Because along the way, we lost ourselves to distraction and to the wrong voices and forget what is truly most important?

I don’t know.

But I hope that now there will be a time when the circle is completed so that we don’t have to go round again. It should be sealed, complete and closed.

But then, I know that no matter how far we have walked. Whether it is still within the circle or off-tangent, we will find ourselves back at where He is. At least, for me.









Ecclesiates 3: 1-8

There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace

Monday, September 21, 2009

of kudos to Liese Bubble Hair Color

I never like to do DIY color at home as I find it very troublesome and messy. I prefer going to a hair salon to have someone do it for me. Not forgetting that I used to get free hair color and treatment thanks to the perks of my (then) job, DIY coloring is really not my thing.

Now that it isn't 'free' anymore, I decided to do my research well before heading down any hair salon which offers the best promotion. Before I could do that, I saw the Liese Bubble Hair Color commercial on TV.

Marketing is about getting the message to the people at the right time when they are searching for it. That just did it for me!

I decided to give DIY hair color a try again after seeing how easy it is. So I bought Liese Bubble Hair Color in Ash brown at Watson at $19.90 to try it out.

Boy, it sure did not disappoint!

For those who are still not in the know, Kao Liese Bubble Hair Color is a new type of permanent hair color that uses foam. It is so easy to apply and best of all, color hair so evenly. That, for me, is what sets it apart from its other competitor.

You guys know that I have super long hair that reaches to my waist. It will be CRAZY for me to DIY the hair color myself without making a big mess. I have MArk on standby in case I need him. But that prove to be unnecessary.

I did it effortless all by myself, on my long hair, without a mess!! That really awe-ed me.

Not only is it super easy to apply. I just need to lather into my scalp and hair and leave on for 30minutes. The color turns out very even as well.

Also, this one doesn't have that chemical stench as bad as others which I have tried from the salons.

However, I do feel a slight itch on my scalp during and after the coloring. But my scalp is on a sensitive side so it doesn't really comes as a surpise for me.

For $19.90, I am so satisfied with the result I see.

I'll definitely use it again!

Kudos to the guys at Kao for this avant-garde product!

Thursday, September 17, 2009

of bread and butter

It’s work, work, work, work and more work.

It’s non-stop action since last Monday. I reckon it will last till end of end week. Gosh, I’m heading to a burn-out and really need a break.

Performing miracles, doing the impossible, hitting ceiling-high targets are all in a day’s work and giving your best seems mediocre.

Good. Better. Best. I wondered what comes after that? I need that.

My social life is non-existent, unless you count those wall messages and photo tagging from Facebook or the random tweeting.

So tired. Crawling to bed each night…

Sometimes when I stopped and think about it, I asked myself why I am doing all these. Or rather, who am I doing all these for? Is it really worth it?

Then I remembered about my plans for the future, I remembered God’s promise, I remembered that I need to give God glory in all things I do, I remember about people who are in a worse situation than me.

I realized that I still have my job to thank God for and am indeed still blessed.

But still sometime I can’t help but wonder how long more can take this?

I’m only human.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

of one venue down, many more to go

The Hilton Wedding show we went to last weekend is a real disappointment.

The ballrooms and deco are very nicely decked out but they just lack the punch we are looking for.

One of the main criteria I am looking for is for the hotel to have an eye for detail, which is what Hilton Singapore is soring lacking.

After registration, we were left standing there without any instruction what to do. We ventured into the grand ballroom and still there isn't any sign of help coming our way. After 10 minutes of loitering within the ballroom, we decided to approach the counter.

Me: Hi, we are very lost here. Can you tell us what to do?
Hilton Rep: Erm..
MArk: XX contacted us for this wedding show. May I know where is she?
Hilton Rep: Erm, XX is busy at the moment.
Me/MArk: I give 'that' look to MArk which we both know is the 'invisible roll-eye' look.
Hilton Rep 2: Maybe I can bring you around?

Duh!

They have to cheek asking us to pay $30 for the wedding show and let us explore your ground on our own? Some great hospitality you've got.

The rest of the show got much better after introdution from the 2nd rep. He patiently bring us to the various venue and explained to us each of the theme they were trying to potray. I must say it don't look too bad. The dessert buffet looks interesting too!

Being the perfectionist me, I have already determind not to sign up with them. They have already lost us in the beginning. Talk about first impression.

Their only saving grace is the complimentary parking ticket which we still have to request for that day. Else we have to pay an additional $17.50! MARk will be super pissed.

Nonetheless, both of us agreed to cross out Hilton. (Sorry, just too bad you didn't manage to wow us)

We are heading to the Fairmont Wedding show later. It's free admission. Hopefully that'll turn out to be better.

Saturday, September 05, 2009

of my 1st ultrasound and I don't like what they found

Period cramps are quite the norm for me but to have cramps until I broke out in cold sweat in another matter altogether. This was what happened to me a couple of weeks back.

Just to be one the safe side, I went for an ultrasound scan at one of the clinic at Paragon just to dismiss any nagging feeling within. Just to be sure you know.

The procedure was fast and the nurse told me that it is the same procedure when expecting mummies come in to check on the growth of their babies. How ironic to be doing the same thing but having entirely different set of feelings! :(

I just gotten the report on thursday. They found a small hypoechoic nodule in my uterus measuring 5.5mm in its longest length. For a layman like you and I, it means they found a small fibroid growth. They attributed that to causing the painful cramps.

I called my mum immediately. (mummies are always the first we call when we are in trouble don't we?)

She told me that 3 years ago, her doctor also told her that she has a 5.5mm growth but that mass ballooned to 9 cm within 3 years. She just had the hysterectomy surgery in july because of the oversize fibroid.

I thank God that I found out early and believes that He can and will heal me. Not really that worrying that as the peace of God is with me.

But my point is if we find that there is something wrong with our bodies, don't procrastinate to see a doctor. Instead of losing sleep because of that anxiety, isn't it better to get a dignosis? Maybe it is just a health scare or maybe it is something much more than that. Either way, it still gives us a greater peace of mind.

Yeah, I know sometimes it could be like opening a pandora's box. But I think I rather know than not know it. It can sometime be a matter of life and death. Early detection can save lives!

Go for your health screening if you have been procrasting that for the longest time. Just to be sure ya.

of the never-ending insatiable wanderlust

The long awaited weekend is finally here! Some weekends are really good-to-have well others are need-to-have. This one happens to be the latter.

The office environment really become much cheerier as the week wears off.

This is usually how I will feel as I transit down the week.

Monday - A feeling of separation anxiety from the weekends. Need some time to warm up to the work.

Tuesday - Thank God I made it through the mondays. Usually most productive and looking forward to clear the work.

Wednesday - Oh good! Its mid-week. What should I have for lunch?

Thursday - Just need to hold on for 1 more day before the weekends!

Friday - Euphoria! On cloud's nine! Whatever bad things that happen can't be that bad anyway. :)


I guess this couple of weeks is worse due to the heightening of the project on hand. It'll soon be over!

Throughout the week, my mind has been echoing Joanne Peh's mantra from Jetstar commercial! "Singapore, you need a break!" Yes. I need a break. I want a break!

So image my surprise when I flipped through TODAY and saw Jetstar's advertisment on their Jetsaver Light Challenge! It is back!

For those not in the know, Jetsave Light Challenge will be flying 10 shortlisted team to selected Jestar destination for a day of fun, excitment and adverture. The team of 2 will pit themselves again other teams for the grand prizes usually in the form of travel vouchers.

I immediate told MArk that I won't missed it for the world! I will make use of my travel itinerary writting skill I acquired during my HTM days in TP for this. (I remember scoring a distinctive for that!) Hopefully my travel itinerary will be some impressive that it will shout "Pick me! Pick me!" and Jetstar will fly us there for the challenge!

Being a self-confessed wanderlust, I am so ashame to say that I have not been traveling as much as I like to. This just gives me a chance to feed my traveling desire!

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

of Cockney and talking cock

During my poly days, I was working part time at Harry Bar in Changi Airport. I get to see very interesting personalities everyday. Those semi-drunkard are always eager give me a cultural walkthrough of their home country. One time, a very drunk australian lady passed me a AUD$100 for bringing her to her boarding gate!

To me, working there is my gateway to the rest of the world. I truly enjoyed my time there.

One of the most interersting things I have heard of is the Cockney language. Cockney is a region in London. They have a very unique slang which is the Cockney slang. It is a rather uncommon slang and was looked down upon in the past.

What happen was I overheard 2 englishmen talking to each other in English but I have absolutely NO IDEAS what they were driving at. I was so fascinated so I asked them. They told me that they were actually conversing in Cockney rhyming slang and explain to me how it works.

Rhyming slang is a form of slang in which a word is replaced by a rhyming word, typically the second word of a two-word phrase (so stairs becomes "apples and pears" as pears rhymes with stairs.) The second word is then often dropped entirely ("I'm going up the apples"), meaning that the association of the original word to the rhyming phrase is not obvious to the uninitiated.

So imagine my surprise when I stumbled across this article on 'Cash machine offers Cockney slang'
http://uk.news.yahoo.com/21/20090824/tuk-cash-machine-offers-cockney-slang-6323e80.html

I could decipher its meaning!! My lesson in Harry Bar come rushing back to mind and was put to good use!

Instead of the usual English language, the ATM also comes in the option of Cockney language!

Therefore, they are asked to enter their "Huckleberry Finn", which means to enter their Pin (Finn rhymes with Pin)
To withdraw £10, will have to ask for a 'speckled hen' (hen and ten rhymes) By the way, Speckled hen is a famous ale loved by the Englishmen.
Also, they will be ask how much "sausage and mash" (mash and cash rhymes) they want.

You might be thinking that it makes no sense at all!

Actually, you will be surprise.

I asked that same question when the 2 Englishmen gave me the examples of "Apples and Pears". I asked them what has it got to do with stairs? They said that the rule of thumb is to have some sort of association to it. And 'Apples and Pears' crate can be found under the stairs. Duh... How obvious right!

Do you 'Adam and Eve' (Believe) it? haha..


Translate this:

'Allo me old china - wot say we pop round the Jack. I'll stand you a pig and you can rabbit on about your teapots. We can 'ave some loop and tommy and be off before the dickory hits twelve.


Translated:

Hello my old mate (china plate) - what do you say we pop around to the bar (Jack Tar). I'll buy you a beer (pig's ear) and you can talk (rabbit and pork) about your kids (teapot lids). We can have some soup (loop de loop) and supper (Tommy Tucker) and be gone before the clock (hickory dickory dock) strikes twelve.

OR

"Got to my mickey, found me way up the apples, put on me whistle and the bloody dog went. It was me trouble telling me to fetch the teapots."

which really means:

"Got to my house (mickey mouse), found my way up the stairs (apples and pears), put on my suit (whistle and flute) when the phone (dog and bone) rang. It was my wife (trouble and strife) telling me to get the kids (teapot lids)."


Well, if you don't understand a thing from my post. I guess, that's the whole idea. :)



Resources: http://www.aldertons.com/ & Wikipedia

Friday, August 28, 2009

of wedding bells ringing

I am in the midst of preparing for our 2010 wedding. It is a bag of mixture emotions. Exhilarating yet confusing. There are so many wedding forums, magazines, articles and advices telling the bride-to-be what to do and what to look out for. They just further confused me.

Right now, we are giving ourselves until oct to decide on our wedding venue. We have shortlisted a couple of hotels that can accommodate our 55 tables. Yes, you did not read wrongly. 55 tables.

Before, I have envisioned my wedding to be an intimate family and close friends only sort of celebration. Somewhere outdoor, surrounded by pretty flowers and greens, breezy, with a live band and a small dance floor for the couple's first dance.

However, looking at the Singapore weather and the sheer number and demographic of guests, I don't think my original plan is going to work. I watched too much Hollywood movies.

In reality, my wedding is going to be a big celebration, somewhere indoor with AC, maybe no dance floor and definately no more mama mia style. Either way, I am still going to make it work, make it an enjoyable time for my guest and an unforgettable memories for me and MArk.

That's what matter most.

Its not about getting my way and having my dream wedding. Well, they all say a marriage involved 6 people. I couldn't agree more. I really hope to make the event and the journey of planning an enjoyable one for us and our parents.

Coming back to the venue, I have shortlisted a few:
-Grand Corpthone Waterfront
-Hilton
-Meritus Mandarin
-Pan Pacific
-Fairmont

We have so far been to GCW for recee. We are happy with what was offered. However, the real haggling will start once we confirm on the venue. haha..

Next step will be to source for the wedding gown and packages.

We might decide to take our bridal shoot overseas. (That's part of the deal he made with me if I accept his proposal. I'm easily bribed.) :)We are planning to do that in Mar/April next year.

Next step is to go on diet. Its really hard for someone like me. Even drinking water makes me put on weight. :(

Anyway, more of that later.

Need some rest now. I'm actually on MC today. Think all the work and wedding plans taking a toll on me.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

of overcoming the odds one step a time

VICTORY is a process. It doesn't happen only at the finishing line. It is actually the sum of many small victories. And if in the process of obtaining that VICTORY, you give up, all the small victories actually counts for nothing.

The small victories come first when you decided to set your mind in obtaining that VICTORY, it is the small little steps along the way where you tell yourselves to take yet another step even when you feel that you cannot, it is banishing all the negative thoughts and fears that tell you that you are never able to make it. It is going beyond your limits one small step at a time.

I had that revelation when I was running for my virgin 21KM.

Negative thoughts hit me just at the 2KM mark. "Christine, you are not going to make it. You still have 19KM to go. Your body won't be able to take it as you have yet to recover from your flu". The mind get bombared by all sort of negative thoughts telling me to give up. I looked at MArk running beside me and decide to just go on another KM. - small victory

At 4KM, I told MArk I need to consume the power gel as I needed more energy. Never have I expected the sheer disgusting taste within that small silver pack. My stomach rejected that immeditately but I force it down with water anyway. -small victory

We started from opposite Fullerton Hotel, up Benjamin Shears bridge and all the way to East Coast Park. Once we reached East Coast Park, it was about 6.5KM. My body felt better, accustomed to the run. We stopped for toilet break and continue to hit the pavement. Along the way, we saw Angelyn. She is looking strong so I told her to carry on without us. Finally, we saw the U-Turn which marks the halfway point of the race. I felt stronger, I urged myself to go on.

Fatigue starts to creep in at 11KM. I told myself that 12KM will be a milestone for me as I have never reached that distance before. I continued another KM. - small victory

I continued for another 2 KM before I slow down to a walk. I looked up at saw that we were approaching 15KM. 15KM! One of my 2009 new year resolution is to hit 15KM. I did what I set out to do! On the other hand, my mind starts to do a mental calculation. "How am I going to complete another 6KM? My knees felt sore and the muscles are cramped. But I have come too far to give up now." -small victory

It was really challenging from 16KM to 19KM. My stamina is still on operative mode but my legs really give way. Every step was accompanied by pain and I have to stop every now and then. The point is I continue. - small victory

Upon seeing the 19KM sign, I somehow find the strength to pick up my speed. I told MArk that I want to run to the finishing line instead of walking there. My legs seem to grow a live of its own and I rely on pure adrenaline to carry me through. The last KM was the longest KM ever. Finally I heard someone shouted "350M to the finishing line". small victory

I am almost there.

I looked at my running pacer, gave him a small victory smile. Both of us know relish that special moment. We are there. I am there. My first 21KM.

I clocked 3Hr and 09min.

MArk told me that the distance (21KM) will never get further but I can.

Yes I can. :)

That is MY VICTORY. - The summation of all the small victories.

Don't give up. Count your small victories and eventually, you will see the FINISHING in the horizon.

P.S: Thank you MArk for your encouragement. Without you, there will not be any VICTORY. This post is dedicated to you.

Saturday, August 15, 2009

of unCOMFORT cab

I had a very bad encounter with a comfort cab driver this week. I was waiting for a cab for a good twenty minutes before I called the booking hotline. Like always whenever we tried to called a cab, another cab with the green-lit top hover over the horizon. I cancelled the booking even before the cab number was called and flagged that down.

Just when I reached home, I saw an unknown number calling so I picked it up. It was none other that the 'so-called cancelled' cab driver. I told him I had cancelled the cab but he refused to take my explanation. He gave me a good verbal trashing and stopped only when I asked for his cab number.

I never see myself as an angry person but this time he really hit my treshold. I called up Comfort Cab to make a formal complaint on this cab driver.

I thought to myself that I should not boycott Comfort as this is just one of the many driver. However after calling their customer care hotline, I don't see what they really care about.

First, they did not get back to me promptly. Secondly, only after the second call did they tell me that they are investigating the complaint.

They are investigating i) for technical failure on why is it after I cancelled the call but the cab driver still received the booking. ii) the attitude of the driver. They will need FIVE working days to get back to me.

Their reply really disappoint me. i) whether if it is a technical failure, the cab driver should not call the customer and verbally abuse them. ii) why do they need FIVE working days to investigate such a straight-forward complaint?

You know sometime you get those feeling like the company is backing up their employees no matter what wrong they did. You felt that you have no choice but to bring this to external parties like CASE or even the forum in order to get your case resolved?

I felt like that.

That is just one very bad incident that I recently encountered. Anybody can just be in a custiner service line and there is nothing 'customer service' about their body language. There are no passion, only full of attitude.

I don't think I am the only one finding it. I will make it a point never to return and also employ WOM to make sure my friends and relatives do the same.

However, not all are like that. I do find some very helpful customer service personnel. One particular one is a lady from Robinson Centrepoint ladies department. I can see she really love what she is doing. Kudos to that.

Well... hopefully FIVE working days later I will hear from comfort and see what they have to say.

Saturday, August 08, 2009

child-likeness

I had a quick catch up with the ladies at East Coast Big Splash earlier this afternoon. We really enjoyed ourselves.

Xueli brought her cutie Elly along but I think she is in a bad mood today. Whenever me and MArk tried to get near her, she will pout her lips and look like she is going to cry anytime. Other times, she will laugh. Talk about unpredictable.

The thing about children is they can behave as how they felt and get away with it. If they are happy, they play with you. If they are cranky, they just ignore you. If they are tired, they will just go to sleep.

You know, how I wish I can be like them. To be able to express my emotions plainly without being critised.

Children never take anything personally and never hold grudges. They will not judge or get angry at you for long. They are basically UNOFFENDABLE.

Each day presents a clean slate for them and a new adventure.

We should learn to be more like children so we can enjoy each day as it is.

How I wish I can dance like nobody is watching, live like there is no tomorrow.

Monday, July 20, 2009

I've got you!



I've decided to run the 21Km Half Army Marathon which I have repeatedly told MArk that it is something which I won't do.

I sorta regret the decision, the moment the words slipped off my lips. However, I will still stay true to my words.

I know I'm still going to do it anyway.

Why put myself through those gruesome miles?

Well... I am so sick of telling myself I cannot do something and so tired of getting mediocre results.

If I keep doing things the same way, things are going to stay the same.

So this marathon is not only a physical training but also a mental training to myself. It is a platform for me to psych myself to prepare for the greater things in life. :)

So far, I've only covered 10KM. Another 11Km more to go. I cannot and dare not imagine how I'm going to do it.

I was running in the park this morning and was on my 8Km. I wanted to give up initially but saw something.

I saw a father teaching his son how to ride a 2-wheels bicycle. His eyes never left his son and he is always staying closely at the back never allow his son to fall down. His body language seems to be saying: "Son, I've got you".

The boy didn't give up either..

He ride wobbly for some distance before stopping to recompose himself and continue on. I run by them and encourage the boy and told him not to keep it up!

I told myself the same.

That image spurred me on for the last 2KM. The hardest 2KM.

I was reminded by how God also kept his eyes on me all the time.

"Daughter, don't give up. I've got you" is what he says.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

of magic wand & genie in the bottle

When I was a little girl of around 4 years of age, I got the taste of my first real disappointment.

I don’t know how I gotten the idea that I could purchase a magic wand and that could grant me any 3 wishes I wanted. It could be from the cartoon network or some fairy tales bedtime story. Nonetheless, the idea of having a magic wand fascinates me beyond my little mind could contain. I thought of it day and night and even dreamt about it.

Somehow, I manage to persuade my mom to give me $50 to buy my wand. $50 is a big thing 20 years ago. It could be a $200 equivalent in today’s context. My mom could have felt that intense earnest in me to agree to this silly request of her 4 years old daughter.

In my mum’s mind, it just another ‘toy’ which her daughter wanted and soon she will grow out of that airy fairy phase. It wasn’t like that for me. I sincerely believed that such magic exist and is determined in hunting it down.

On that fateful day, my sister, our nanny and I set off for my ‘wand’ hunting at Toys’ R Us across the island. I don’t know if my nanny is just patronizing me or if she really doesn’t have a clue of what I was looking for. We wandered from stores to stores, with me trying my best to describe the magic wand to the sales person. We were rejected at each stores and the disappointment sets in deeper and deeper.

At the end of that day, I was somehow convinced that what I was looking for doesn’t exist.
What saddened me most is not about the magic wand. It wasn’t even about the 3 wishes that I could have. I didn’t even think about what are they wishes that I wanted.

It is about idea of having a magical wand, a mystical “genie in the bottle” who will grant me just about anything I wanted.

I felt disappointment for the first time in my life (at age 4).

I told this story to MArk last night. We were at Wendy’s birthday celebration and somehow I brought up this topic. MArk wasn’t surprise. He is rather accustomed to my ‘Alice in Wonderland’ mode but he had another name for that. He called them ‘you and your nonsense’ instead.

I told me that it was at age 4 that I realized I couldn’t have what I want all the time. I understood disappointment. I realize that my life is not as easy as to waving a magic wand and getting just what I wanted.

On our way home, we stopped by the petrol kiosk and I have gotten a surprise.
Before MArk stepped off the car, being the gentleman that he is, he will always ask if he can get me anything from the store. I just causally told him that I wanted the Tigger plush toy which was on display at the store. Both of us know that I am not a fan of plush toy and he knew that I’m being nonsense again. So he left the car without a word to make payment.

5 minutes later, he came back with the Tigger in his arm.

He told me that he fought all the urges to come back and asked if I truly wanted the toy. He goes against his logic and gotten me something which I just said I wanted.

I knew he remembered my story.

I still didn’t have the magic wand. But I have him. I have family and friends who loved me and who are willing to go all out and care for me and protect me.

I won’t forget the look on his face when he came back to the car that day.

I was looking at my magic wand.

Even better, I am looking at a magic wand who not only give me what I want. He gives me what is best for me.

If given a choice to get what you want and what is good for you, what would you choose?

Me too. :)

I thought of our heavenly father and I thought I saw Jesus in him that day.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

of new inspiration and dreams

Its a funny feeling.

Everytime I wanted to start anew, I have this urge to change my blogskin. It is as if there is some sort of intertwined connection between them. I'll have this urge to blog. Like changing a new outlook will have a change of heart.

My heart.

This is a new beginning for me.

Bit by bit, there will be new changes. Good changes.

Look out for it!

Thursday, April 02, 2009

2nd Driving attempt

Work started in full swing and time passes so quickly. It is one of the rare luxuries that I never get to enjoy back at the ex-company. Back then, minutes passed like hours and hours like days.

Now, a random check on the time will reflect a good 3 hours difference from the last check. Before I know it, it’s time to pack up and hit home! Within the 8 hours, I’m doing a million thing, concurrently.

That’s how 1 month has passed. – without knowing it…

Today’s different.

Today, I’ve taken a day off for my driving test. Unfortunately, I failed the second attempt. I was really confident of this time, thinking that I am more prepared, etc… Still…

This was my worst attempt yet. I wondered why I suck at driving and concluded that my mind cannot be doing only one thing at a time. In another words, I am a serial multi-tasker. To do one thing at a time bored me to death. So while driving, my mind auto-pilot itself to do more than a thing at a time. And most of the time, while driving, my mind auto-pilot itself to day-dream. Its really scary when suddenly, I was jotted out of daydream to force myself to concentrate on the road and one minute later drifting into wonderland like our dear Alice…

(Is it me or it is me?)

But through this, I’ve learnt. We often learn our lesson through failure. I learn how not to be afraid of failing. Many times, the idea of failing is more terrifying than the actual failure itself. I’ll try again.


My 3rd final attempt.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Love is a walk in the park

To say that Love is a walk in the park.. Well... that's definitely an understatement. It is hard work.

But that's what we did on St. Valentines' Day.

A walk in the park...






Love is....
A journey








made by 2 like-minded people




to weather the mountain-high and valley-low experience of life together



to look at the big picture, without sweating the small stuff


to watch the sunset together and thank God for the day...




Love is this...







Monday, February 09, 2009

Tickets book for Guangzhou

I'm finally able to satisfy some insatiable part of my wanderlust bug this year! My air ticket for Guangzhou is booked on the 22nd Feb to 27th Feb. My mom and god-ma will be joining me. I'm finally able to visit my dad after his 3 years stint there. Looking forward to the trip, alas, MArk won't be joining.

I'm nursing a flu and gastric at home as of this moment. Still, it didn't dampened my holiday mood!

Living my best life now!!