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Every ending is a beginning. And every beginning begins because of an ending. Where do I begin? The story of me. People are concern with your beginning and how you end. But they are not interested in the process. Who gets to walk through the swamp of life? You! Who is with you? You!

I get frustrated all the time because of my inability to express my feeling in words. I get all this stuck inside of my, dying to get out, but trapped within my body. The agony of it all. Fighting its way out. The only way to release this feeling is to read. Why read and get more things stuck in your head? I don't know. When i read, it is as if the author is helping me to express what i truely want to say. They know what is in my head. I don't know how they know. But they just do. I admire them for that.

I have to write this fecking 1500 words short story and i don't know how to begin. I'll most prob going use my first paragraph and then go on to talk about the in between of my life with many fictional incident in them. I could have writen on any genre but choose to expose myself to her(ms hernie). Maybe its easier to write about oneself, which is not that easy anyway. Or maybe i want to shed lights onto some of my life darkest moment to someone who is willing to read. Haha.. tutors make the best candidates because they got no choice right?

Enough about writing. Just complete the book Angela's Ashes by Frank McCourt. Wonderfully writen. I love it so much! Ireland, Catholic, innocents of childhood. Not so much on the potato famine anyway but because of it i guess! Everything in ireland is because of the great famine isn't it? Should get a copy of it if there is time for extra reading. I recommend it!

Tomorrow. Oh how i dread the word tomorrow, especially if tomorrow is a tuesday. Service Day!!!! Having proficiency test tmr. God help me. With the silly menu and all. who can remember it? Can't even pronounce things like Ravioli a la Nicoise, Filet Mignon a la Bodelaise, Saumon Pochee sauce au tomates et Grand Marnier. How am i suppose to recommend? Maybe i should learn from the famous AMBER! and skip service altogether. Haha... Don't think i don't know you didn't go school huh! Hahazzz.. Catcha!

Hmmm... Have to go now. And study the bloody menu with silly French words which i don't know. Ciao.