Every ending is a beginning. And every beginning begins because of an ending. Where do I begin? The story of me. People are concern with your beginning and how you end. But they are not interested in the process. Who gets to walk through the swamp of life? You! Who is with you? You!
I get frustrated all the time because of my inability to express my feeling in words. I get all this stuck inside of my, dying to get out, but trapped within my body. The agony of it all. Fighting its way out. The only way to release this feeling is to read. Why read and get more things stuck in your head? I don't know. When i read, it is as if the author is helping me to express what i truely want to say. They know what is in my head. I don't know how they know. But they just do. I admire them for that.
I have to write this fecking 1500 words short story and i don't know how to begin. I'll most prob going use my first paragraph and then go on to talk about the in between of my life with many fictional incident in them. I could have writen on any genre but choose to expose myself to her(ms hernie). Maybe its easier to write about oneself, which is not that easy anyway. Or maybe i want to shed lights onto some of my life darkest moment to someone who is willing to read. Haha.. tutors make the best candidates because they got no choice right?
Enough about writing. Just complete the book Angela's Ashes by Frank McCourt. Wonderfully writen. I love it so much! Ireland, Catholic, innocents of childhood. Not so much on the potato famine anyway but because of it i guess! Everything in ireland is because of the great famine isn't it? Should get a copy of it if there is time for extra reading. I recommend it!
Tomorrow. Oh how i dread the word tomorrow, especially if tomorrow is a tuesday. Service Day!!!! Having proficiency test tmr. God help me. With the silly menu and all. who can remember it? Can't even pronounce things like Ravioli a la Nicoise, Filet Mignon a la Bodelaise, Saumon Pochee sauce au tomates et Grand Marnier. How am i suppose to recommend? Maybe i should learn from the famous AMBER! and skip service altogether. Haha... Don't think i don't know you didn't go school huh! Hahazzz.. Catcha!
Hmmm... Have to go now. And study the bloody menu with silly French words which i don't know. Ciao.
Monday, February 06, 2006
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
Finally make it thus far. Project submission! CNY! All over. Well... technically CNY is not over yet but... anyway, you know what i mean right? I'm glad those sucky projects and presentation are all over. Which mean that exams are coming soon... :o( Which also mean the holidays are coming soon too. hahaz... That's really something to look forward to. Hopefully i can get a well deserved break. Maybe a trip to bintan with yilin and crystal? Hopefully.
Heard from a reliable source that Andre has gotta a girlfriend. Glad for him. Hope they will last anyway. I won't lie to say i don't feel the pang in my heart. But still... its over. Zhaoquan also found himself a girl by his side. That i am truely glad. Everyone has got somebody already huh.. Haha.. Which leave me what? Alone? hahaz... Or should i say i am preparing myself to meet the ultimate him? Only heaven knows.
Had a gahering with the girls last night. Jinwen, yiling, xueli and jojo. A strong feeling of nostaglic feeling overcome me. Thought of my most wonderful secondary school memories. How we used to be part of each other life. And now, we are fleeting memories of each others. Will we be friends forever? Can this friendship last till then? I don't think so. Haha.. But i really do hope so... I do really... Xueli, who used to be my best friend. Jojo who used to make me laugh so hard that i can cry, jinwen who is ever the supporting friend. Yiling the beautiful and fun girl. Meiyun, the girl i used to hate but now is ok. Haha.. ok sounded lame. But anyway.. ya.. people that used to be so impt.
Had so much feelings lately about the past. They been catching up on me. No specific person really. Its like suddenly I felt some really familiar feeling that i used to have when i am doing something or talking to someone. Like those feelings when i have badminton training after school, or those vision about the school hallway or even those very warmth feeling when i am surroinded by frds. Have those deja-vu feeling yet i know its not. There is this unexplain feeling that i keep getting. Familiar yet strange. I don't know how to better put it.
I really hope i can stop feeling all those. Make me wanna cry. Wanna go back in time. Yet i know its impossible. Gotta look ahead. Maybe it is far more exciting. Or maybe its a continuation of the past. Friends will continue to be friends forever. That's my prayer.
Heard from a reliable source that Andre has gotta a girlfriend. Glad for him. Hope they will last anyway. I won't lie to say i don't feel the pang in my heart. But still... its over. Zhaoquan also found himself a girl by his side. That i am truely glad. Everyone has got somebody already huh.. Haha.. Which leave me what? Alone? hahaz... Or should i say i am preparing myself to meet the ultimate him? Only heaven knows.
Had a gahering with the girls last night. Jinwen, yiling, xueli and jojo. A strong feeling of nostaglic feeling overcome me. Thought of my most wonderful secondary school memories. How we used to be part of each other life. And now, we are fleeting memories of each others. Will we be friends forever? Can this friendship last till then? I don't think so. Haha.. But i really do hope so... I do really... Xueli, who used to be my best friend. Jojo who used to make me laugh so hard that i can cry, jinwen who is ever the supporting friend. Yiling the beautiful and fun girl. Meiyun, the girl i used to hate but now is ok. Haha.. ok sounded lame. But anyway.. ya.. people that used to be so impt.
Had so much feelings lately about the past. They been catching up on me. No specific person really. Its like suddenly I felt some really familiar feeling that i used to have when i am doing something or talking to someone. Like those feelings when i have badminton training after school, or those vision about the school hallway or even those very warmth feeling when i am surroinded by frds. Have those deja-vu feeling yet i know its not. There is this unexplain feeling that i keep getting. Familiar yet strange. I don't know how to better put it.
I really hope i can stop feeling all those. Make me wanna cry. Wanna go back in time. Yet i know its impossible. Gotta look ahead. Maybe it is far more exciting. Or maybe its a continuation of the past. Friends will continue to be friends forever. That's my prayer.
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