project blues

Counting down to the trip to BKK: 03days

All day long, the only thoughts that have been occupying my mind is the trip. I have already got a long mental list of the items that I am going to shop for. Ha ha.. I'm gonna be the "Queen of Haggle" and hone my bargaining skill. Have to start polishing it now. Even though, I have heard that the locals are also very good at that too. They make a living out of it, what can i say? I have drawn up an itinerary for the group and it includes the famous sightseeing tour in Grand Palace which includes cruising down the Chao Praya River.

Today was actually a very stressful day. I was confronted with a lot of unfinished work and have no idea how to advance. Work was thrown to me in all direction and I really have no intension to pick them up one by one. But I couldn't resist the temptation inside me. It seems again that I have tried to put everything on myself once again. I questioned myself times and again why do I always come back to this issue with myself. I know very well that I am an extreme perfectionist but I did try to not that ruin my social life. So what happen again this time? Why do I always end up doing other people's work and leave my own with no time to complete? Is my perfectionist streak really that bad that it leaves no room for imperfection? Probably.

Or could it be that I am over critical of myself? Blaming my own perfectionist nature rather than blaming others for being indifferent to their roles? People just don't prove to me that they are capable enough and thus my inability to trust them? Of course there are people whom I have love to work with throughout my entire 3 years and these people shown me that the problem doesn't lies with me. I have no issues with their work and really put my trust in them to do what was needed. Ok. Conclusion: The issue doesn't lies with me.

Haha.. this is really funny coz I am like asking questions and answering them myself. I really tend to do it. Like talking to myself, only this time, stating it in black and white. Actually I have make it a point never to blog about my projects or the members because it seems unethical. But I have to confessed that this entry is really not about the social loafers in the group or to complain about who is not doing what. I know everyone is trying. Its about me understanding myself better and the way I work. Actually I should not even be justifiying myself. Heck, this is my blog. Haha..

I met up with my Wendy just now for dinner and coffee. Haven seen that girl for century. So we did some catching up of her current status in SQ. Her future is furnished with excitments and interests that I would die to have. Not literally, but you know what i mean. The perfect jet-setting lifestyles that I yearn for. Flying to NRT and SYD in august. If she was to tell me she is going MEL, I would really find my way into her luggage and contort my body in that cramp space for 7 hours. =)

I guess I better go and complete my assignment now. Another night of burning the mid-night oil. Thank God for the banana mocha I grapped at starbucks earlier. =) Night people.