The prison of discontentment has the most inmates. Its overpopulated and demand most attention from the prison warden. I'm one of them. What i have, i did not give thanks. What i don't have, i grumble and shout that 'life's unfair'. Life is indeed unfair. One has to accept it and be at peace with it else one can never be at peace with herself.
Changes is hard but it is not impossible. I want to try. I want to change. I want to be contented with what i have and what i don't have. There's this saying that goes: Help me accept the things i cannot change and help me have courage to change those that i can and help me have the wisdom to know the difference.
Well... Just finished the last book. Have to pay the library a visit again. Hopefully by tomorrow. Its hard to find time since projects are starting to pile up and i have make a new committment to start exercise. Went swimming just now. Covered 22 laps. Finally working those muscles. I hope its not a 3 minute kind of interest.
I went to Changi Airport just now in the afternoon doing a field inspection for my assessment. I'm not being biased or what but Singapore Airport is really something. It builds its facility around our needs and not the other way round like many others. However, i think dubai airport is another one to look out for.
Hmmm... enough about airport for today. I have writen a 4 page report on it and i'm not done yet. But the requirement is only 3 pages. Hope it'll do. I'm going to bed now since there's nothing else left to read. Ciao
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
Sunday, November 27, 2005
Baptism Sunday
I declared to the world today that i belong to Jesus! I was baptised in church this morning. Its a physical act with many spirtual implication. Though i still feel the same, but i know i am very much different. In so many ways, i am a new creation, the old self has gone and the new has come. This has meant so much to me.
And so it is, back to school. Work are piling up and making me breathless and panting. Its all in my making. For 3 weeks, I have been busy entertaining dinner, movies and my own personal 'down' time. And the consequence? I gotta slogged off an entire week in school. I know its gonna be a Busy week for me. But i want to challenge myself to go swimming and jogging for this week. I gotta work off those extra kilos around my waist. The weighing scale is definately hitting the red zone. Damn, the festives periods are just round the corner. I'm so dead!
Back to the creative journal writing... Its still at number O. I should have expected that considering that i'm a procastinating queen. But i make sure that i'm gonna have at least 3 by the end of this week. The lesson is getting more and more interesting. With the tutor intriducing us to many good reads. One of which is 'Life of Pi'. Very humoursly written. I like..
I was doing my project research but i coouldn't take my mind off blogging so i came here to rant! I guess i better go now.
Its gonna be alright, cuz i know that my God save the day and i know His words never fail and i know my God has a way for me. Salvation is here. - Hillsong; Salvation
And so it is, back to school. Work are piling up and making me breathless and panting. Its all in my making. For 3 weeks, I have been busy entertaining dinner, movies and my own personal 'down' time. And the consequence? I gotta slogged off an entire week in school. I know its gonna be a Busy week for me. But i want to challenge myself to go swimming and jogging for this week. I gotta work off those extra kilos around my waist. The weighing scale is definately hitting the red zone. Damn, the festives periods are just round the corner. I'm so dead!
Back to the creative journal writing... Its still at number O. I should have expected that considering that i'm a procastinating queen. But i make sure that i'm gonna have at least 3 by the end of this week. The lesson is getting more and more interesting. With the tutor intriducing us to many good reads. One of which is 'Life of Pi'. Very humoursly written. I like..
I was doing my project research but i coouldn't take my mind off blogging so i came here to rant! I guess i better go now.
Its gonna be alright, cuz i know that my God save the day and i know His words never fail and i know my God has a way for me. Salvation is here. - Hillsong; Salvation
Thursday, November 24, 2005
Just have a phone conversation with Zhaoquan. Realised that things have change so much between. First, there was the love at first sight, then slowly it develop into a deep heated love that blurs all reality then the quarrels and breakup. Resentment and anger sets in accompanied by jealousy and hatred. But now its all different. There is an unusual peace. Its a deep rooted care that comes from within and love isn't in the way to obstruct that. Enough said.
Its was Mambo Nite at Zouk last nite. It was the first time i went after their reopening. Was fun, fun and fun. Went with crystal, yilin, amber, nate and Kenneth. I was telling amber that i was born in the wrong era. I love retro, oldies and all the saturaday nite fever thingy. Grease is my all time fav too. Those were the days of the trend setters. Ladies and gents partying the nite away in diso, cruising the highway, black leather jacket, bell-bottom. poka dots prints. School and work is their last priority. HAha... Its party time everyday.
I'm meeting wendy later in the evening for Harry Potter! So looking forward to that! Will update once i have watch the show. Hehe...Amber watched it twice! Anyway, i have nothing to do now while waiting for wendy so decided to blog. Bored...
Its was Mambo Nite at Zouk last nite. It was the first time i went after their reopening. Was fun, fun and fun. Went with crystal, yilin, amber, nate and Kenneth. I was telling amber that i was born in the wrong era. I love retro, oldies and all the saturaday nite fever thingy. Grease is my all time fav too. Those were the days of the trend setters. Ladies and gents partying the nite away in diso, cruising the highway, black leather jacket, bell-bottom. poka dots prints. School and work is their last priority. HAha... Its party time everyday.
I'm meeting wendy later in the evening for Harry Potter! So looking forward to that! Will update once i have watch the show. Hehe...Amber watched it twice! Anyway, i have nothing to do now while waiting for wendy so decided to blog. Bored...
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
Emperor New Skin
Surprise Amber? I manage to don on a new costume without anyone's help. I did it by myself. What we've learn in year 1 dreamweaver classes did help alot though. Haha.. But actually its dummy-prove. Hehe
Had a discussion with my friends and they seems to think that i am a weirdo because i don't intend to look for a boyfriend. One even try to match make me with her friend who is suppose to be a Superstar 'weichong' lookalike. Gosh! Being single is a choice that i have make. Its not involuntary. I'm still waiting for God's best. They make me seems like an alien in this world or some sort of lesbian. Then they went on to saying all the things they look for in a guy. My God! Its all about dollars and cents. How materialistic people can be. Don't get me wrong. I don't dislike them. In fact they are rather good friends of mine. I just think that their belief systems is rather distorted beyond my belief.
Thank God for bringing me through today. I thought i can never make it thru today. I hate tuesday!!! At least for this semester. Its a wet and cold tuesday, ideal for pigging out at home.
Just completed 5 people you meet in heaven by Mitch Albom. Nice read. But surprisingly, it didn't probe me into thinking deeper. I thought it will leave me much to think about. But it didn't. Now starting on a new book "catch me if you can".
I don't think i wanna continue writing becasue i gotta meet the girls for breakfast tomorrow before lesson and they wanna go Zouk. Gotta catch up with my sleep.
Had a discussion with my friends and they seems to think that i am a weirdo because i don't intend to look for a boyfriend. One even try to match make me with her friend who is suppose to be a Superstar 'weichong' lookalike. Gosh! Being single is a choice that i have make. Its not involuntary. I'm still waiting for God's best. They make me seems like an alien in this world or some sort of lesbian. Then they went on to saying all the things they look for in a guy. My God! Its all about dollars and cents. How materialistic people can be. Don't get me wrong. I don't dislike them. In fact they are rather good friends of mine. I just think that their belief systems is rather distorted beyond my belief.
Thank God for bringing me through today. I thought i can never make it thru today. I hate tuesday!!! At least for this semester. Its a wet and cold tuesday, ideal for pigging out at home.
Just completed 5 people you meet in heaven by Mitch Albom. Nice read. But surprisingly, it didn't probe me into thinking deeper. I thought it will leave me much to think about. But it didn't. Now starting on a new book "catch me if you can".
I don't think i wanna continue writing becasue i gotta meet the girls for breakfast tomorrow before lesson and they wanna go Zouk. Gotta catch up with my sleep.
Sunday, November 20, 2005
Lazy sunday
I have kept to my promise of updating my blog for the sake of training myself to write more and maybe by doing that, i'll finally get around to write my journals. By right now, the number of journals that i have wrote accumulated to ZERO. Big fat O. Seriously, its a real chore for me. Because i don't really like people reading my stuff. I know, i know... it contradict with the idea of blogging right. *Lost for words*
Anyway, had a long day yesterday. Woke up so early to go queenstown. Went Ikea to get a shoe rack and shop around. Was intending to have the famous swedish meatball for lunch but the sight of the queue is enough to kill my appetize. Was with Shelley and she brought me to this really nice place at i don't know where. Its call "Villa Bali".
It is, as the name suggest, reflecting the decor of Bali culture. Soft instumental music playing in the background and the sound of flowing water at the nearby lagoon. It has many private gazebo that cater to the guest's need for privacy. The furniture are make of rattan lookalike wood but were discoloured due to the constant exposure of the elements of nature. The whole area were planted with many bushes and trees that show off the rustic feel of Bali. On top of that, there were insects and crawlers that truely make you feel like you are in a tropical forest. At the entrance, there is a long bridge connect Villa Bali to the main road. The place claim to be an ideal spot to chill out at night but i think if you wanna truely admire the beauty of the place, its best visit in early evening.
Enough with the commentary. Its hard work. Wonder which publication wanna use me. Haha...
Oh by the way, visit club momo at night. Gosh, its really not up to the expectation. Their marketing effort is good it still lacks something. The crowds are not helping either. The only pretty thing you see are those dancers or the host. Other than that, its not worth it. But then again, the band is alright. But i can see that younger people will like it.
Hmm... TV showing Harry Porter. Wonder if half of Singapore have caught the lastest HP during this weekend. I heard that its all full house all over town. I'm gonna catch it this coming thursday. Can hardly wait. Gonna watch it with wendy. Full of anticipation already. Missed watching I am Sam last nite. I'm surprise that somebody still remember that i love that show and he msg me reminding me to watch it. With a box of tissue of course! It spur me into thinking that there are still people out there that might be looking out for me still. Thank God for them!
Gotta go, wish i can go on forever. Have to prepare for tmr's lesson. Angee staying over tonight. We're not going to slp i guess... Panda eyes! Hehe
Got a question to all bloggers. Who are your audience when you are blogging? Do you have a specific person in mind?
Anyway, had a long day yesterday. Woke up so early to go queenstown. Went Ikea to get a shoe rack and shop around. Was intending to have the famous swedish meatball for lunch but the sight of the queue is enough to kill my appetize. Was with Shelley and she brought me to this really nice place at i don't know where. Its call "Villa Bali".
It is, as the name suggest, reflecting the decor of Bali culture. Soft instumental music playing in the background and the sound of flowing water at the nearby lagoon. It has many private gazebo that cater to the guest's need for privacy. The furniture are make of rattan lookalike wood but were discoloured due to the constant exposure of the elements of nature. The whole area were planted with many bushes and trees that show off the rustic feel of Bali. On top of that, there were insects and crawlers that truely make you feel like you are in a tropical forest. At the entrance, there is a long bridge connect Villa Bali to the main road. The place claim to be an ideal spot to chill out at night but i think if you wanna truely admire the beauty of the place, its best visit in early evening.
Enough with the commentary. Its hard work. Wonder which publication wanna use me. Haha...
Oh by the way, visit club momo at night. Gosh, its really not up to the expectation. Their marketing effort is good it still lacks something. The crowds are not helping either. The only pretty thing you see are those dancers or the host. Other than that, its not worth it. But then again, the band is alright. But i can see that younger people will like it.
Hmm... TV showing Harry Porter. Wonder if half of Singapore have caught the lastest HP during this weekend. I heard that its all full house all over town. I'm gonna catch it this coming thursday. Can hardly wait. Gonna watch it with wendy. Full of anticipation already. Missed watching I am Sam last nite. I'm surprise that somebody still remember that i love that show and he msg me reminding me to watch it. With a box of tissue of course! It spur me into thinking that there are still people out there that might be looking out for me still. Thank God for them!
Gotta go, wish i can go on forever. Have to prepare for tmr's lesson. Angee staying over tonight. We're not going to slp i guess... Panda eyes! Hehe
Got a question to all bloggers. Who are your audience when you are blogging? Do you have a specific person in mind?
Friday, November 18, 2005
Writer's block
The second semester of my second year has just started. I'm into the second week of it. I was taking an interesting module called creative writing. In the first tutorial, we were to describe a person we knew and without thinking much, i describe my best friend, Wendy. It was so fun to describe what i think she is like and on top of that, i can add things onto her character to make her more dramatic. Its like painting a white canvas sheet with colours. I wonder how others will do up my painting. The first assignment was to hand up 15 journals within a month. Gosh, I even have trouble updating my blog how am i suppose to hand up 15 journals? Whenever i take out my writing materials, i seem to be suffering from the most dreaded writer's block. But when i blog, words just flow out. Maybe i should just blog out those 15 journals and print it out from here.
This new semester meant also to me. It shows me God's promise to me. His words never fail. Even though its the same journey, same campus and even the same classmates, the feelings were altogether different. Marvelous. But same classmates also posed a tricky situations. We gotta regroup out project group. I'm feeling really nice working with my ex members but were forced to split due to some inconsiderate people who just want to get their way by compromising others. But this has spur me onto doing my best and showing them that i can do well even with people that they discarded into my group. They were tough people to work with but i can do all things through Christ who give me strength.
Know some really nice people like yilin and crystal, yuan yuan and also belinda. Fun people to be with. But i also come across some back-stabbers. They didn't stab me of course but my dear friend. Just a word of comfort is that without the villians, there will be no good guys right? No point pondering over their actions. Let them crash and burn.
Recently, i got into a situation with some friends too. Actually 2 guys. One of them get me so pissed off that i don't think i'll ever want to meet him again. I mean, what's wrong with clashed schedule? He's busy and I am busy. And i get faulted for being busy or not answering my msg? Come on la, I am not oblidge to return their call. This is the problem with cell phone. Cell phone does mean that you can have direct assess to that's person but that doesn't mean that that person allows you to do it. I believe that you can't blame someone who just missed your call whether intensionally or accidentally right. You have your rights to call and they have their rights not to pick up. Damn it!
The other guy just abuse his rights that he has my number and keep calling me day and nights. I feel so bad for turning him down all the time but then again i tell myself that i have the rights to do it. You see, people like that just love to make you walk the guilt trip by accussing you of turning down their offer to meet up. They don't get the hint that you are really not interested or maybe they do. They just want to make you feel guilty that you are turning them down all the time and out tof the guilt, you'll say "yes".
Haiz... ever hear the song 'crazy' by 'Simple Plan'? I love that! It says that the world is going crazy and if you really open up your eyes to see, you will know that something is wrong, what's going on? It so apply to the world now. Bird flu, hurrican katrina and hurrican wilma, earthquake, tsunami, bali bombing (II), jordan bombing, people chopping others into pieces and throwing them in public area. I mean the list can go on and on. All these happens within the span of 1 year. The world and its people are going crazy. All these are the end time event that the bible are speaking off. I hope i am ready for it.
I HOPE YOU ARE READY FOR IT.
I once read a book called "She said yes". Before you rolled your eyes, its not about some romance book. Its bout a girl saying 'yes' at the face of death during the Colombine High School shoot out. By saying to 'yes' that she believe in God and Jesus, she was shot to death. Some people might say that she is stupid. But i think that she is dying for what she believe in. And whatever that she is believing got to be real enough for her to die for it. Following that chapter is a phase that say: "All of us should live life so as to be able to face eternity at any time." I was inspired by it and so sharing with you here.
Anyway, gotta go. Leave your comments. Would love to read them.
Reference: She said yes; the unlikely martyrdom by Misty Bernall
This new semester meant also to me. It shows me God's promise to me. His words never fail. Even though its the same journey, same campus and even the same classmates, the feelings were altogether different. Marvelous. But same classmates also posed a tricky situations. We gotta regroup out project group. I'm feeling really nice working with my ex members but were forced to split due to some inconsiderate people who just want to get their way by compromising others. But this has spur me onto doing my best and showing them that i can do well even with people that they discarded into my group. They were tough people to work with but i can do all things through Christ who give me strength.
Know some really nice people like yilin and crystal, yuan yuan and also belinda. Fun people to be with. But i also come across some back-stabbers. They didn't stab me of course but my dear friend. Just a word of comfort is that without the villians, there will be no good guys right? No point pondering over their actions. Let them crash and burn.
Recently, i got into a situation with some friends too. Actually 2 guys. One of them get me so pissed off that i don't think i'll ever want to meet him again. I mean, what's wrong with clashed schedule? He's busy and I am busy. And i get faulted for being busy or not answering my msg? Come on la, I am not oblidge to return their call. This is the problem with cell phone. Cell phone does mean that you can have direct assess to that's person but that doesn't mean that that person allows you to do it. I believe that you can't blame someone who just missed your call whether intensionally or accidentally right. You have your rights to call and they have their rights not to pick up. Damn it!
The other guy just abuse his rights that he has my number and keep calling me day and nights. I feel so bad for turning him down all the time but then again i tell myself that i have the rights to do it. You see, people like that just love to make you walk the guilt trip by accussing you of turning down their offer to meet up. They don't get the hint that you are really not interested or maybe they do. They just want to make you feel guilty that you are turning them down all the time and out tof the guilt, you'll say "yes".
Haiz... ever hear the song 'crazy' by 'Simple Plan'? I love that! It says that the world is going crazy and if you really open up your eyes to see, you will know that something is wrong, what's going on? It so apply to the world now. Bird flu, hurrican katrina and hurrican wilma, earthquake, tsunami, bali bombing (II), jordan bombing, people chopping others into pieces and throwing them in public area. I mean the list can go on and on. All these happens within the span of 1 year. The world and its people are going crazy. All these are the end time event that the bible are speaking off. I hope i am ready for it.
I HOPE YOU ARE READY FOR IT.
I once read a book called "She said yes". Before you rolled your eyes, its not about some romance book. Its bout a girl saying 'yes' at the face of death during the Colombine High School shoot out. By saying to 'yes' that she believe in God and Jesus, she was shot to death. Some people might say that she is stupid. But i think that she is dying for what she believe in. And whatever that she is believing got to be real enough for her to die for it. Following that chapter is a phase that say: "All of us should live life so as to be able to face eternity at any time." I was inspired by it and so sharing with you here.
Anyway, gotta go. Leave your comments. Would love to read them.
Reference: She said yes; the unlikely martyrdom by Misty Bernall
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